The Universe (Ebb & Flow)

On your spiritual journey, it is essential for you to release control in order for the universe to make your dreams and manifestations come true. This is one of the hardest things for me to do in terms of manifestations as well as navigating a spiritual awakening. If you feel you are constantly trying to piece together everything when you are going through an awakening this post is definitely for you. I recently had a realization about the meaning of this struggle that involved some shadow work.

Growing up I had to manage and predict the feelings of my caretakers because I never knew what to expect. I used this as a survival technique the entire time I lived with my parents. In a spiritual context, I think this way of life transformed into anxiety about not having control of the outcomes of my manifestations. It is troublesome to attach yourself to only one outcome because we are here with a mission and there is no need to limit yourself. I journaled and asked myself why I was afraid of experiencing new possibilities and to be frank I was scared of losing. Clinging onto versions of ourselves can be trauma induced but also a fear of being who we truly are because someone told us it was wrong or unusual. I think I really had to pay attention to the way I spoke to myself.

Journal:

What are some negative self-talk habits you adopted from someone else?

It time to re-evaluate these habits. Write down some of these traits/phrases and next to them write memories in which you proved these habits as untrue.

I also discovered numbness as a trauma response to new opportunities and ventures. I was rejecting everything because I based the new experiences on what I had already been through. Again, I was limiting myself to certain emotions because I felt I had to protect my new emerged self from the world. I did not want to “lose myself again.” Let me tell you this train of thought was absolute bullshit. I had attached the pain I experienced to my back and wore a cape of invisibility because emotions were scary to me.

Let’s get into the ebb and flow part of the post.

Duality in spirituality is essential to becoming one with the universe. The truth is there are no good or bad emotions. Therefore, we are not meant to cling onto emotions instead we are meant to flow with them alike the universe asks of us on our journeys. I also feel as if the emotions we tend to block out or reject are emotions we were not shown growing up. For instance, I was shown fear, anger, and sadness/grief while I was growing up and as a result I felt uncomfortable with happy or joyful moments. In fact, I rejected these emotions almost entirely. It was extremely hard for me to enjoy special moments because of this fear of the unknown. I now realize that I must be open to emotional transformations in order to truly flow with the universe and release my need to control. It is scary but emotions can help us trace back to lessons and unfinished business we must clear out.

If you are resonating with these blockages I am describing, repeat the following affirmations in the morning as soon as you wake up.

Affirmations:

I acknowledge and accept uncomfortable emotions in order to grow from the illuminated blockages.

I gracefully allow my emotions to flow like the ocean.

I call back my energy from all realms and persons in effort to acknowledge my power.

I am the co-creator of my life along with the universe.

I release the need to control the outcome of my manifestations and/or dreams.

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xoxo,

sage